In which Choon truncates his post. Again.Wednesday, July 23, 2008
at 10:03 PM;
Gah. Choon was really really depressed and pissed during training, then he got better.
Like I've said before, I don't want to feel like my place is grudgingly given, that I get to play simply because there aren't enough subs, that I'm playing only because someone is too tired and they couldn't find anyone else.
I'm not expecting people to say, "hey Choon, go and play, we need you", but it really hurts when I spend 2 and a half hours doing short passes for lack of things to do, with a grand total of 2 people from team U while the people in team are out there learning zone offense and defense, working on their gameplay, getting to do something important, learning from the coach.
And all the while we're being ignored, like we're useless. Hell, it does seem I'm useless, I'm relegated to "do whatever by one side while we important people train". Okay, fine, throwing simple passes is useful. Still, there's no worse way to make someone feel extra. And feel extra I did.
Yes, I understand and I accept that team comes first, the focus is on them. Fine.
I don't even know why I'm so committed. I'm probably the only person not in team who comes for every training. I just feel so...extra.
But that's that, and I'm feeling better already, thanks to the frisbee people, especially Guang Yu.
Teaching SV today was quite good, it reminded me of quite a few things I've been letting slip in my life, and I'm determined to change that.
Choon is feeling lazy today. He wonders if he should bother to type out something intelligent, and post another poem.
Bah. Tomorrow. I promise. For sure. This time.
the rest is silence;
